Some days, my heart feels like it’s carrying more than it should. The weight of everything, life, motherhood, marriage, expectations, sits quietly on my chest. I go about the day doing all the things, managing the home, being there for others, ticking things off my list, trying to stay present, be an employee and an employer but deep down, there’s a stillness I’m searching for. A calm that sometimes feels far away.
And the truth is, healing doesn’t always come from doing more. Sometimes, it comes from remembering more.
Dhikr has been that lifeline for me. Not something formal, not something fancy. Just soft, sincere remembrance. A whisper of the heart in the middle of chaos. It’s not about perfection, it’s about presence.
My personal anchor that my heart keeps going back to is the dua of Yunus (peace be upon him) La ilaha illa Anta, Subhanaka inni kuntu mina-dhalimeen. There is no god but You. Glory be to You. Indeed, I have been among the wrongdoers.
I say it often. Maybe because I always feel the weight of my own shortcomings. Maybe because I know I don’t always get it right. I fall short. I slip. I react. I forget. But this simple dua brings me back. It holds me and reminds me that even in my errors, I can return.
There are moments when I’m praying, fasting, doing all the outward things, but something still feels unsettled inside. Like I’m doing everything, but not feeling anything. That’s when I know my heart is craving something deeper…not noise…not solutions. Just dhikr. Just Allah.
This become my calm. My way back to myself. My reminder that I’m not alone in this. That Allah is bigger than what I’m carrying and He sees the struggle I don’t even have words for.
And the beauty is, I don’t need a perfect moment to remember Him. I can whisper His name while folding laundry….breastfeeding…in the uber…while staring into nothing, trying to catch my breath.
Dhikr, for me, has just become where I go when I’m tired of thinking…when I don’t know what else to say… when my mind is loud but my heart just wants quiet. It’s simple, it’s not deep or dramatic..it’s just my way of breathing through the day without falling apart.
So if your heart feels unsettled, just start with what you can. Let the remembrance of Allah sit with you in whatever you’re doing. You don’t need to pause your life for it..it fits into the cracks of your day. And sometimes, that’s all it takes. Just a little space for your heart to rest.
Love Always,
Your Tranquility Partner ❣️
©Rawsheedah Akorede Saheed