I know what it feels like to wait, to pray with all your heart, believing that relief is near, only to wake up and find that nothing has changed.
To watch the days turn into weeks, the weeks into months, the months into years, and still… nothing.
I’ve been there, staring at the sky after salah, whispering, Ya Allah, when…was it when I was waiting to join my husband or when I even told him to come back home that we would be drinking garri together(well, I’m glad he didn’t listen to me sha)
I’ve carried the weight of an unanswered dua, felt the sting of watching others receive what I’m still begging for. And in those moments, doubt tried to creep in.
“Did I do something wrong?”
“Am I not worthy of this?”
“Why is Allah making me wait?”
I know what it feels like to question, to struggle with patience, to wonder if the silence means the answer is no.
But here’s what I’ve learned: The silence isn’t rejection. The delay isn’t a punishment. Allah’s timing is never random.
I used to think near meant soon. That if I just held on a little longer, my dua would be answered exactly the way I imagined. But time and time again, I’ve seen that near doesn’t always mean now. Sometimes, near means when my heart is truly ready. When the pieces are aligned. When what I want is finally good for me.
And I’ve learned this the hard way.
There were duas I made years ago that didn’t come true, and I was convinced Allah was holding back from me. But when I look back now, I realise He wasn’t denying me, He was redirecting me. I wanted a girl child and thought I was ready, it took me the loss of two to realise I wasn’t really ready to raise a girl, what I thought I needed back then would not have served me now.
I’ve lived through the frustration of waiting for something, only to receive better than what I asked for. And I’ve also lived through the heartbreak of realising that some things I desperately wanted were never meant to be mine.
But through it all, I’ve come to believe one thing with absolute certainty: Allah never delays without wisdom.
Maybe you’re in that waiting season right now. Maybe you feel like your dua is floating unanswered, like the door you keep knocking on will never open.
But what if, just like me you’ll look back one day and realise that the wait was never wasted, every second of patience was molding you into someone stronger and that Allah wasn’t ignoring you, He was protecting you…
So don’t lose heart. Keep making that dua. Keep placing your trust in Him. Because one day, when you least expect it, you’ll look back and understand why it had to be this way.
And you’ll thank Him for every unanswered prayer. For every delay. For every time He gave you better than what you thought you wanted because He always does.
Love Always
Your Tranquility Partner ❣️
©Rawsheedah Akorede Saheed